I felt more in the last two weeks than I have in a long time. Ups and downs. Maybe even some left and rights. Love has me all messed up. Love for God. Love for people. I dunno what to do all the time. Sometimes I want to jump up and down and run around hyper and happy. Other times I collapse and start crying from pain and loneliness. Then I'm back to running around again...then feeling like my heart was ripped again. Then running...you get the point. It's a roller coaster, but I prefer feeling than being the numb person I was in order to avoid pain. Pain is part of life. It's part of love. It's part of being human.

I use to write poems and songs. Where did my inspirations go? Maybe they are still here and I am just having trouble being inspired by them. Either way, I want to feel poems and songs in my soul again. I miss it.

So I'm just going to put different things I've learned or had happen to me in the last ten years. Ten years ago is when I moved to Missouri (Well, about 10 years ago) and finally had a real home. No more moving every few years. It's also where I made real friends and learned to really love my family and God. So here we go:

-Everything, I repeat EVERYTHING has a consequence. Whether it's good or bad is a different story. Remember that we are not to run from consequences but to face them. (Run from temptations though, different story) There are few people I disrespect more than someone who runs from consequences/results of their own decisions.
-I learned that we can choose to be happy through the worst day of our life. That day still really sucked though.
-I've learned how limited many of us Americans are because we generally only know one language
-I have learned to face my fear of heights by trying to do as much cliff jumping as I can. I still have a fear of heights. This makes each jump like a rush of adrenaline which some of you may not have experienced yet. Also, the fact that I always seem to face plant in the water also adds a measure of 'WOW'
-I've learned that sometimes we misjudge friendships. Actions do speak louder than words. Yet, sometimes the actions we see are merely a side-effect of other actions going on behind the scenes. Friends sometimes do things we think illogical in order to protect us.
-50 states...I think
-Your heart jumps a beat when you hear "BOMB" in an airport and you are the one going through security at the time
-Running in place during gym class is a sure fire way to exercise without effort....yay for no effort. lol
-Chimichangas are the best 'authentic Mexican food' in the world
-Some stereotypes are true...and it makes me laugh
-I've learned that there is a huge rush from jumping off a rock naked in the middle of a public river
-I still doubt God at times and I still get super upset at Him. I cannot deny that I believe and follow Him though. Sometimes I have wanted to walk away, but I can't do that because I know He exists and I can't just give the middle finger to God when I know He's real. I am a Christian through and through...even if I want to leave sometimes. Jesus is real, I've tried to dispute it....I failed. Living the life now. I don't really comprehend how people can know and not follow....I guess I'm just too logical.
-WOW is only fun when you have friends playing it with you
-Running can be a great stress reliever and a great way to enjoy the outdoors. Yet, it becomes much less fun when it's painful deep down. So, if you are healthy try a run. If you are not, start walking.
-I cannot control what my friends think...not matter how hard I try to. I can only be the best friend I know how to be to each individual. I have come to really expect people to do/be one thing, to be human. Being human means doing amazing things and some dumb things. I'll never stop loving any of you. I haven't stopped loving any of you.
-Distance changes a lot of things...more than what we are told
-We all have gifts and natural abilities....idiots don't use them.
-The more evil we see the more good we can also see. Things seem much more bright in the dark.
-You CAN get used to car wrecks and shrug them off...but hopefully you don't have to
-Being an uncle is awesome
-Dance clubs are overrated..but can still be fun
-The thought of being under the influence of anything without control or able to have memories scares me...I didn't even want anesthesia for my operation. I dunno how people don't fear what happens when they are stoned or drunk out of their mind. Though, I have wanted to be crunk or high in order to forget pain.
-I like tattoos...I do. I have some ideas already. Three possibly that may come to fruition.
-I am highly underrated...and you probably are too. Embrace how awesome you are and live life with little fear. We are better than we think. BTW, I'm still single if any of you want to see if I'll chase you.
-Boxing is intriguing
-A good role model can save your life...find one
-We humans dance far too little...dance more and smile.
-"Better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all."--> This is a dumb saying. Just love.
-Remember to live now and not always prepare...preparing all the time allows little time for living. This life is probably only 50-100 years for most of us. Live it well and enjoy it the best you can while keeping morality. The next life will be a blast too! So don't think fun is only in the next however many years.
-ALWAYS, ALWAYS wash your hands after using the bathroom. Nothing says, "I told you so" like a case of hepatitis.